Shieldmaiden

I had a really crappy day. I took a quick trip out to pick up a few household bits and I had more stares, nasty looks and whispered comments in half an hour than I've had in the last couple of weeks. It really hit me hard and I was close to tears when I got home.

It's the knock on effect that is the difficult part. I felt ugly, freakish and about as feminine as a brick. The gender dysphoria was overwhelming. I just wanted to feel pretty and girly, and I couldn't.

I...

Okay, this is a day late, but yesterday marked a week of full-time womanising. Wait, that came out wrong.



Jokes aside, it's been great. I've been out with friends and on my own. Not done anything spectacular, just doing the usual stuff, just as a woman. It's surprising how quickly it's become normal, but I guess for me, it is normal. It's the having to have been a man that wasn't right.

In other good news, after getting on to a local councillor friend...

Yesterday was a big day for me, I went out as a woman for the first time. It was literally the scariest thing I've ever had to do. I was meeting a friend in town, but that meant I had to get on a bus and travel into town on my own. It was seriously nerve-wracking, but the experience was okay. I got a few second glances, but if I'm any good at reading facial expressions, I'd say they were more "Damn, he's tall, wait, that's a woman!" than "Look at that giant tranny!" Once I was...

It's been confirmed that I'll be getting money either tomorrow or Thursday, which is fantastic news. The waiting absolutely sucks, though. I'm really bored and sick of eating ramen.

To make myself feel a little better, I used the last of my little foundation sampler and prettied myself up.

The clothes that I ordered haven't arrived. I'll ring them up in the morning to find out what's going on. To make myself feel better, I bit the bullet and used the red hair dye that my sister gave me. I've never dyed my hair before, I'll let you know how it goes.